Random Feeling

I do not understand the emotions that befall over me sometime. I love the feeling of being ignored, told to do something merely to make sure I am not annoying her or in her way. Suddenly around lunchtime a feeling came over me that I wanted to come back home this weekend and be told to quickly get ready for be and then lie down on my mattress straight away. Not be allowed to speak to her until spoken to an not be spoken to until the next morning. I hoped she'd cuff my hands behind my back as well. It was just a daydream though.